Hello, my name is Heidi...
...and I am a recovering people pleaser and perfectionist.
I grew up idolizing Angela Bower, Joan London, and Ally McBeal. I did everything right to get the best grades to get into the best schools so I could kick start a kick ass career.
Becoming a high powered business woman meant gaining the independence and financial freedom I saw on TV. Concrete jungles were my happy place, especially when I was wearing a killer pair of heels and sipping a soy latte as I rushed from place to place.
But underneath the facade, "Career Heidi" I called her, I was feeling exhausted, drained, and powerless over my life.
I was letting my career dictate my value. I used outside forces like my education, degrees, title, and employers to boost my resume and self worth. As a result, criticism from my boss or an uncomfortable run-in with a competitive coworker could send me in a tailspin of insecurity.
I was constantly tired. I felt like I deserved a reward simply for surviving the day. I waited all week for the weekend to come. And when they did, my weekends were consumed by recovering from the week that just happened and mentally preparing for the week to come.
I was living to work. I had no idea who I was or what made me happy.
Then one day in the middle of a venting session, a friend made a comment that changed my life. "Maybe you're one of those people that aren't meant to be happy.” I realized everything had to change. And so I changed it.
I AM meant to be happy. I'm the only one that gets to decide whether or not I'm on the right track. And you do too.
I started a spiritual journey and learned the universe is working for, and not against, me. I've worked with Gabby Bernstein and Mastin Kipp (both recently named as part of Oprah's Super Soul 100 list of awakened leaders). I love reading spiritual and self improvement books and attending workshops and retreats to learn even more and connect with like minded souls.
I've given up people pleasing and instead discovering and learning to express the Wildly Authentic version of myself. That's what this blog is all about - sharing my journey and to inspire you to join me. I want to build a life that I love and I want that for you too.
In this spirit, I recently moved from Boston to Charleston and started working from home. I have lived all over the country (including Los Angeles, CA, Stamford, CT, New York, NY, Scottsdale, AZ, Dallas, TX) but this was only the second move I made to a city where I wanted to move. Not where some HR manager was telling me I needed to move to to help the company. This move was for me.
Now at the end of the work day I have energy to walk on the beach, take pictures, and spend time writing this blog. I'm finding freedom and joy DURING the week and it feels incredible.
So tell me, what is the universe calling you to change?